I need some advice. The more people respond to this thread the better, please.
Some of you might recognize me and know what I’m going through, well I may have found a way out.
There’s this scholarship I can apply for that will allow me to go to Japan for a degree. I match almost all the requirements, the only thing left to do would be the knowledge test. But…
I will die next year, that’s a real fact. So what if I get the scholarship? An entire government will put their trust in me, but I will fail them and end up dying. All the resources they’ll invest on me will go to waste because I won’t even graduate.
So, is it worth the try? Maybe someone else needs that scholarship, someone that will make it until the end, graduate and be a brilliant professional. I don’t want more people to waste time in me, because I’m not worth it. I would love to get to know Japan and be away from my parents, but I will fail everyone. I don’t want to be selfish.