Everybody in this house just doesn’t want to exist. I heard my grandma saying this and how am I supposed to help her when I don’t even know how to find the reason to live? I’d like to help her but sometimes her mind is just not in as good condition as it used to be. My mother blames my grandma for the fact that my mom’s condtion is worse. That’s because about one or two years ago, when my sister and I were at school, grandma could help mom walk. In this way, she was still exercising. But when grandma went to the hospital, we needed to find other ways.That’s way mom is weaker, not able to move and gets tired easily. I think grandma was just too tired. It was more comfortable to let my sister and I do all the work. I try not to blame her. But it makes me so angry, when she complains about everything. That we do sth wrong, that we don’t speak loud enough, that we speak too loud, that we don’t stay at home when she wants. I’m just so tired. So angry. Let me die.