Im tired

This is ridiculous, I know it’s not supposed to be easy or simple. But I’m just too tired to do this anymore, I don’t have anything left in me.

I physically feel like gravity is getting stronger by the day. I keep thinking about the bridge. About the feeling of falling, how it feels to know it’s finally over and it can’t be stopped. To feel the world pull me down. The air blocking all the noise around me. But the one thing I always wonder, should I jump forward and watch the water get closer or backwards and watch the sky get further.