I need a suicide date. date as in, day, not some weird romantic fetish.. But i guess I’ll decide on that later.
I’ve been pushed over the edge now. I don’t have motivation to run away. I don’t have motivation to look for new people or friends. I’ve tried talking and meeting to countless online friends. Some i have pushed away..
I’m done. I can’t do this.
I’ll let you know when i decide on a date.
Thank you Chordful, Kat, Sportsballs, Fakingit.. I wouldn’t have made it this far without you.
I wont ever leave without a proper goodbye.
I’d write more, but tears are like burning my eyes.. Is that normal? 0.o
Goodbye for now
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It would mean a lot to me if you didn’t go.
Checking in this morning to see if you are ok.
I’m okay. I’m seeing what I can do
I’m glad you are ok.
(!)
I wished I had seen this earlier. I don’t want you to go but I don’t want to fill you full of guilt and shame, either. I don’t want to force you into staying by emotionally blackmailing you. But I’m going to second Cordless and say that you deserve to live, and I want you to live.
What pushed you? I know a lot of what has been going on with you lately, but this sounds like a specific event in particular.
This girl I was talking to. I mentioned get to you. The one that moving to Hawaii. She left me. It made me realize, I’m not good for relationships. And considering I don’t get messages often, I’m not good for friends either.
I’m looking for ways out. I’ll see what alternatives I can do before I decide to die
Thank you Kat. Your comments make me smile 🙂
Hey i really love you, i dont have to know you to know i do. I really want you to feel better and I’ll be there whenever you need a chat. Trust me, itll be fine, eventhough it seems impossible right know… It will be okay.. I promise..??
I don’t want you to go. Life is precious. You matter. You are here, you might as well stay for the duration.
Coming from someone who just found out literally a month and one day ago that their mom committed suicide please reconsider that choice. You may think that no will care or it won’t make a difference but I promise you…. it will affect way more people than you know.