Bree hasn’t left me alone all day. Neither have the voices. They’ve all been taunting me, knowing what was happening today. My Nan had a hospital appointment. She’d been getting pains in her back. Turns out, her terminal cancer has spread to her spine now. And it’s all my fault.
They warned me. The voices warned me, the Angels warned me. Bree warned me. They said they would make my family suffer if I didn’t do what they said. Now they’ve done this. This is all my fault. And everything will only get worse if I don’t listen to them.
I told everyone it would be bad if I ignored them, I told them all things would happen. They tried to convince me otherwise. Everyone said to just ‘distract’ myself – not that it’s possible to distract yourself from constant voices and an entire person 24/7. Now look how that worked out.
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I wish you and your family much love and health in this days.
and It’s not your fault, your doing the best you can outside and inside of you, but this was not caused by you! stay strong, don’t give in, hold on!
Maybe somehow referring these posts to your therapist/psychiatrist will help.
Jiminy, your grandmother has terminal cancer. Terminal cancer is caused by crazy cells out of control not angels and or Bree.
But, I totally understand your fear. I could say the above sentence fifty times and it doesn’t discount the guilt you are feeling or the very real fear you experience while being tormented by this.
You are not the one that caused this though, I’m just going to state that for the record.
Hey jiminy, just a message of support and strength. Try not to give in to the voices or angels. Ur grandmas cancer was not caused by u in anyway shape or form. Hang in there.
Hei! I’ve read your posts and I am thinking that wether you are taking antipsychotics? Has your psychiatrist prescribed them? They might be helpful with voices and figuers. It seems to take a toll on you and I am little worried about you.
All the best!