Isn’t in funny how a lot of people on this site will ignore any post that even mentions drugs. Even though depression and addiction often go hand. Well here it goes, you’ve been warned!!
Was that so bad huh? Well it’s been maybe 1-2 weeks of nonstop daily use, and honestly when that powder hits my nose I feel calm. You imagine a cokehead jumping up and down, meanwhile I’m nodding on it. I feel calm and for once that constant voice saying suicidesuicidesuicide is shut out by the voice saying cokecokecoke.
I guess recovery’s not going so well. Sorry for taking my anger out here but my family doesn’t know about the drugs or the suicide and it just hurts me that it seems that one of the few supportive places I have seems to turn their back on me the second I bring up using. Obviously this doesn’t apply to everyone- particularly I want to thank HDS for her wisdom… Thanks guys, love always