Hello. It’s been a little while. It’s testing week. Had to study. Should be studying. Wanted to do a quick post. This post is going to be dumb and whiny. Please don’t be mad. I can’t handle it when girls smile at me. It bothers me. A part of me thinks that she might like me or think I’m attractive. Then the bigger part of me thinks that’s stupid and would never happen. I really don’t know how to talk to or be around girls. I can’t really even handle it if they look in my direction. This one girl I don’t even know that well keeps looking in my direction and it kills me. I know I’m not attractive or even that nice. I’m a pretty shitty guy. Thing is that part of me that has that bit of hope keeps scrapping in my mind. Keeps popping up and annoying me. I hate it. Even if a girl was interested, for whatever bizarre reason, there’s nothing I can do about it. Too much baggage. Too afraid that she would realize that she is wrong. What if I have a panic attack when she is around? Too much baggage. I doubt I would even make a good guy. Sorry for the whiny post. Won’t post for a while. I have tests. Need to study. Bye.