So fucking sick of this life! I hate my parents for bringing me here! Black parents are traitors and liars. Why would you live a shitty inferior life then bring me here to do the same? Black people are hated the WORLD over because the majority are criminals and too stupid to function. It does not matter if you try to be a “good negro” your image is tainted from birth. Outside of accra and lagos (probably built up by non-blacks) there are no black civilizations. Nothing but death, misery and disease becomes of any place we inhabit. I chose to remain childfree because I can’t imagine having children grow up to hate themselves as much as I do. I think about all the times I fit the stereotypes and it makes me sick. I think about how many white cities have been destroyed and how many children black men have abandoned and I wish I could genocide my entire race. Just trying to pay all my debt down and live a decent life until October 11. 25 is looong enough to live as a black person on this earth. I am fucking done with this wretched existence. I hate being a black woman I feel ugly and unattractive every day of my life. I hope my husband moves on to someone he really loves and does not have to feel like he settled anymore. I set up a funeral plan and I have been saving money. What more can I do to make sure my spouse is well to do when I go?