So you may be thinking about opting out just as I was all through out my life. There were lots of times I just wanted to die. Why? Because at the time my thoughts about the world were different than they are now. Did my thoughts about the world in which we all live get better? Actually no they got worse. So why don’t I still want to off myself you ask? Because nature will do it for me at some point.
Let me explain a bit further. I have studied numerous religions and belief systems. What I have come to realize is that no one has a fucking clue about anything. It is all based on what we are hopeful for (faith) happens after we die. It is all based on this fear of death. Sometime in my mid 30’s I had an epiphany of sorts. I realized that if I stopped giving a fuck about what others thought of me or what they were doing or really anything for that matter life became a lot easier for me at least inside my head.
I had to get a thick skin to say the least in order for things that used to bother me to stop bothering me especially my thoughts. I also came to realize that this whole bullshit of an existence was all in my head and my perceptions of reality was all inside my head. Once I stopped giving a fuck the thoughts of giving up left. My life isn’t a breeze and neither is anyone else but at least my brain for the most part has stopped bugging the shit out of me.
So what makes me happy these days? Well lots of things. My life isn’t perfect but I at least have enough distractions to get me by. Distractions are a big key to getting past your own brain. That and not giving a fuck and live your life any fucking way you want. When one door in life shuts just say fuck it and move on to the next. Doors in life will never ever run out no matter what you are doing.
Life isn’t over yet for us. There are still things we all want to do or to experience. So work toward those things. Life goes by faster than you expect so try each day to do something that makes you happy and say fuck it to tomorrow. We might not be here tomorrow.
This is just a little blurb that I hope helps someone at some point in life. My whole story is a bit more complicated and very fucking long so I will not go into that.
3 comments
Thanks sfg, u make alot of sense.
In the words of the great ferris bueller…
“Life moves pretty fast. If u dont stop and look around once in a while, u could miss it”.
Its only taken me till now, almost40, to understand what u and ferris are saying. Truly inspirational man. Thanks.
Yup, you nailed it. Nice. Thanks
somefuckingguy, yes everyone will die sooner or later, and really life is meaningless to the big picture we are insignificant actually, that’s hard to accept but it’s reality, so why try? the answer is for yourself, your here and alive, you can think, and you can do! do what? what ever it is that makes you happy, you are all that counts, once your dead you don’t count anymore, so while your alive strive for your passions, your here so why not? this only happens once. you have little time before you return to NOTHINGNESS! Don’t be in a hurry. 🙂