Why I have trust issues

I don’t know why I keep trusting people. I just feel like people don’t care. I told a ‘friend’ of mine what was going on with me and he was going through the same thing and I thought that this time its gonna be different. I didn’t even feel awkward or angry about people invading my private and emotional side. I really don’t know why I expected something different this time. No one really cares and I think he’s just like the rest of the people. Just hangs around you when he wants and leaves you hanging when you thought you were friends.

I was smart for not telling everything. I’ve been betrayed way too many times to let that happen again. But the difference was that he’s actually going through what I’m going through. I know I’ve probably also betrayed his trust too so I guess its pay back. I deserve it.

But it felt really good to say things that I’ve never said before and good to hear that I’m not the only one. I know he probably doesn’t care but I just wanna talk to someone like that again. You know, without being scared of being judged.