Has it happened to you? That things seem to be fine and promise that they’ll get better, but you’re afraid the hopes you’re building will make you suffer when everything finally crashes?
I’m trying to get an scholarship to Japan. But my biggest fears are the evaluation tests. Especially:
I’m not going to study something related to science but they’ll still make me take that exam. And I’m so scared I even cowered from presenting my application.
Everybody keeps telling me that I’m so smart I shouldn’t worry. But THAT’S NOT TRUE. I’m the only one that knows it, I’m dumb as fuck. I’ve tried, god knows how hard I’ve tried to understand something. But I can’t.
Anyway, I’ll still submit my application. But I’m scared that if I don’t get the scholarship I’ll be so depressed that when the new series I’ll be watching comes to an end I’ll kill myself.
I’m afraid I’ll not make it until the August 15th of next year. That I will fail the promise I made myself.