An Introduction, The Beginning

Hey.

So I just came across this site and it’s currently late here and my curiosity got the best of me so I decided to join and see whether or not this thing will actually help me feel better.

I’ve never been one to open up to people especially when it comes to deep thoughts about depressing things and suicide. I live in a household where we’re close but we never bring up such dark, depressing, taboo topics – we tend to stick to regular small talk I guess you would call it. I’ve decided to not reveal much about my identity as me opening up about my feelings anonymously really helps me a lot more.

So a bit about me I guess:

• I’m 15
• I’m from England

…and that is the most description you will probably ever get from me. I don’t really have any friends as the ones I tend to hang around talk about drugs and partying and that is most definitely something that I’m not interested in. So I’m alone with my thoughts a lot and not to mention my many insecurities just builds on top of that.

I’ve never been one to think about death constantly until recently. However when I was 12 I self-harmed and I did think about suicide but not as often as I do now. I guess that is one of the reasons why those sorts of temptations are here now. I don’t know the main cause of my suicidal thoughts and I don’t have a lot to say on the matter just that I think of it multiple times a day and I have had one or two friends who have attempted.

So that’s really all I have to say. If anyone can relate feel free to comment your thoughts I suppose. Sorry for the awfully long-winded introduction but I have a lot to get off my chest and this is the first time opening up.

– anonymous