just took nine xanax pills. each pill is half a milligram = 4.5 milligrams. this is not a suicidal attempt, obviously. i just needed something that’ll take me away for a while. girlfriend problems are bitching. soon i should have a blackout and won’t remember any this, so that’s why i’m writing this to you, as well as for myself.
update: i just woke up because my girlfriend called me. i’ve slept for seven hours with my shoes on, apparently. i’m still confused. the fuck she want with me? anything i do seems like a mistake. i don’t know if she’s angry, disappointed, or generally hate me.
ah, fuck this shit. i couldn’t care less about my well being. fuck her for making me promise i’d call her before self-harming, for her hypocritical care for me.
stop thinking you’re the only one suffering. and frankly, i don’t give a damn if you were to be hospitalized. maybe in a way it’ll get you back to norm. back to the roots of our relationship. after all, we met at the hospital, each coping with his own mental illness.
i’m still beat. think i’ll get in bed and try to sleep the rest of my trip off.
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Xanax are a good way to black out for sure. Just be careful of the quantities & wether or not u mix alcohol with them. Either way, take it easy with them. My step father attempted suicide after jumping off a 2 year habit of 4mg xanax a day. Im sure ur smarter than that tho, but either, be careful.
no worries, i swallowed them with cola. last time i blacked out was two years ago so i’m far from being addicted to it. i take half a milligram once in a while, when i need to. doctor’s recommendation.
Last time I had the misfortune to take xanax, I took 1mg, waited about an hour and nothing was happening, so I took another 1mg. I woke up two days later trying to figure out how I fell asleep in my closet and where I even got a stuffed Kermit The Frog puppet.
Also, I think you mean 450mcg – micrograms. Half of one milligram is 500mcg.
lol great story. i just checked, it was milligrams.