I’m sitting here trying to relax after a busy work day. Lots on my mind. I’m tired too and a little hungry, don’t have the energy to make anything to eat though. I’m really just tired. Tired physically and tired of dealing with crap everywhere I go. We have a big mandatory work meeting next week and I’m less than thrilled I’m going to have to spend an extra two hours at work that day. I really need a real vacation and have enough time saved up for it but don’t know what I would even do with the time. I know I should just take some time off regardless though. I work with people, caring for them and it’s definitely challenging. Every day is the same crap. I sometimes wish I worked in a factory because machines don’t talk back and act out. The job I do has been 12 years and I know if I left this job I wouldn’t do it anywhere else because I’m getting burnt out. I lost a few very special residents this year so far and I miss them every day. I have my crafty stuff I do, making jewelry and crochet and would love to make some sort of business out of it but everytime I try is never really pans out. My body is falling apart from all the lifting over the years and my mind is fryed from dealing with crazy people day in and day out. Not to mention in the next year or so my area is going to dramatically change because it’s all about greed and money not the people who are forgotten. I am really bitter over what’s going to happen to my little area. It’s just sad. I feel too much I guess and just am sad. I feel my general attitude slipping because moral in general among the other long term coworkers is slipping, management does not care. We were told to quit crying in so many words. I don’t know the point of this but Phantom and Cordless told me no post is invalid and to never feel bad for posting something and this is definitely something I would have normally typed out and deleted because I just thought it was stupid. Ok, done rambling.