Why can’t things just get better. I’ve lost my job and we are having such financial hardships right now. I feel like the world is falling on me. I borrowed a lot of money from my sick mother and now other family members are getting involved and are thinking that I stole from her. No one believes me. My family hates me because of this my mom let me borrow a lot and she is very forgetful and I tell her all the time about the money I borrowed and owe to her and once I get a job I’m going to pay her back. But they don’t see that they think I’m taking advantage of her and that I’m stealing money. She doesn’t have long to live and I’m apparently ruining her life and should be thankful she didn’t dishone me. My family won’t listen and I don’t know what to do we are behind on everything and I feel like I’m drowning. I’m trying and I can’t seem to fix anything. Maybe with the little cash I have I should take a life insurance policy out and then try to die in a car accident. But knowing my luck I won’t die I’ll just be stuck as a vegetable. I cashed out my 401k from my last job and offered to give that to the family members handling my mom’s bills. I don’t know what else to do. My mom was OK with letting me use the money because she had a large settlement but now everyone is pissed at me. I keep telling them that she knew and was OK with it because I always try to pay her back. I don’t know what to do. I feel like such a horrible person maybe I should end it. I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this.
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Please don’t be so hard on yourself.
You are in a bad situation yes. But everyone has been at that rock bottom at least once.
I know you probably care a lot about what your family thinks but your mom knew what she was doing when she said yes to you. That is not you taking advantage of her. That is a mother doing anything for her son. And if that doesn’t show you that you matter and you are worth something I don’t know what will.
Your family’s opinion is clouded by your mom being sick. They could also be jealous. Who knows. But you just need to take time everyday to show your mom that you love her and thank her for everything.
If she is as bad as you say then it is better to pay her back with these kind sentiments rather than money. At this point in her life money is probably not what she wants back.
Be strong through your families accusations.
Be loving towards your mom and show her you appreciate her.
Be easy on yourself.
Feel free to email me if you need anything.
I’d suggest you stop talking to your family. If your mom can’t handle her own financial affairs then the family failed her by not having her declared incompetent. Things like this happen when the elders lose their edge. You might want to consider the possibility that you aren’t the only beneficiary of your mom’s largesse.
If the financial support she gave you hasn’t impacted her quality of life then you are blameless. Go forth and hold on for a better day.