Hello everybody, it’s been awhile but I’m back. I was gonna go on a tyrate and vent but after reading some post and thinking about things ( for once ) I’ve come to the realization that i I’m just getting used to things. I honestly thought things had turned around for me and made the mistake of letting my guard down and everything just kinda fell apart again. I was gonna go out do some partying but decided not to. Then was gonna come here and vent because i have some really good people here that can usually talk me in from ledge. Then i made the decision that I’m not letting life win this time, I’m gonna win this time. I deserve to give myself at least that much, just like every one of you deserve to give yourselves that much. I’ve been working on liking myself which is something that I’ve never been able to do. I’m not giving up anymore, of course all of that is subject to change but for now i feel hopeful and thankful for my friends here on SP. i wish we all could feel this way all the time because i think it’s finally time for some happiness. And i do sincerely hope that everybody finds their own happiness, whatever that may be. I really am sorry for just rambling lol but i just wanted to share a positive post for a change. Thanks guys for letting me share my thoughts.