I swear it’s not a sex thing. Ok, maybe it’s a sex thing. I hate that it’s a sex thing. I’m so pent up. I wish my mental health didn’t leave me a sad perverted man. I have these juvenile thoughts that are indicative of an untouched inexperienced loser. It’s a dangerous combination, to be an alienated celibate man yearning, frothing.
Addendum: I know this is wrong, but does anyone else consider those who speak of boyfriends and girlfriends, husbands and wives, children…to be less…it’s not a competition, I know this. Depression, anxiety, it affects all, but part of me…you found someone, you get touched…nevermind.
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Do you yearn for intimacy or sex, because there’s a difference. If you just want sex, you can always go to a brothel. Not my thing, but no judgements here.
On the addendum part. Girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, wives, and all that, also come with challenges and issues. Sometimes they even contribute to the problem. Having a person in your life, doesn’t automatically mean that they’re a positive impact on your well being.
I think I want to be wanted/desired. I’ve seen escorts and strippers and it’s temporarily satisfying but ultimately fleeting. I just wish someone would see me and see something…something special, something they want.
Ah, that’s a whole other kettle of fish. It’s also something you won’t be able to force. The only thing you can do, is to get yourself out there and hope for the best.
Hit the lotto! 🙂 That should do the trick! it really is a hard deal, you have to find someone that likes everything about you don’t forget you have to like everything about them! otherwise whats the point? Don’t forget you will wind up supporting them, a buying a house with a white picked fence, then have children you have to support that hate you! you will need to work another shity second job to make ends meet! wind up on here again crying i want to die!! somebody kill me! when i think about it the brothel things sounds pretty good! 🙂 typical Rocketman humor! 🙂
Seriously finding someone isn’t easy, and takes time, keep looking carry on!
I get you; I too am celibate as I also want more than just one-night-stands at this point in my life. There are many reasons why, but ultimately I guess I want to form a camaraderie with someone first. I want them to kinda know me, and like me, and vice versa, before we sleep together. Is that such a crime?
I don’t think it is, not when so many people get married and pledge monogamy to one another (even if they don’t always uphold those vows, but that’s a different matter). Personally I’m not the marrying type, but I definitely have the capacity to be faithful to one p.artner. It’s a choice one makes if that’s what both parties want, because being in a rlship doesn’t mean you won’t still find other people attractive. However… what you share with them should make you want to keep them in your life and not upset them by getting with other people. (Unless as a couple we go to a sex club or have a threesome).
Anyway.
Celibacy is damn hard, though. I hope people with consistent p.artners won’t take them for granted. 😉