I don’t post often anymore. But I had to get this out somewhere tonight.
For those of you that do not know, I work as a CNA in a nursing home and love my residents more than life. Every once and a while one comes along that really is special to me. One of which passed away 5 months ago. I still miss her every day. Tonight her daughter came in to visit. I gave her the biggest hug but couldn’t say how much I missed her mom. She said it for me when she said I miss her so much. She and her family were a part of my life for 4 years. I listened to the same instrumental track over and over during the week she slowly died. I don’t remember much but the sadness then. It was right around the time I found this place. I felt a part of me dying as I watched her slip away. Before she fell into the coma like sleep I had one last chance to talk to her. I held her hand and told her with tears I my eyes that I loved her. She said I love you too. It meant so much to me that her family wanted to make sure I got my chance to say goodbye too. It’s a difficult situation when they are all there but yet you too are grieving and sad. You don’t want to overstep your boundaries. Tonight I guess all the memories came flooding back. I miss her so much.