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Sad tonight

by Wintergirl

I don’t post often anymore. But I had to get this out somewhere tonight.

For those of you that do not know, I work as a CNA in a nursing home and love my residents more than life. Every once and a while one comes along that really is special to me. One of which passed away 5 months ago. I still miss her every day. Tonight her daughter came in to visit. I gave her the biggest hug but couldn’t say how much I missed her mom. She said it for me when she said I miss her so much.  She and her family were a part of my life for 4 years. I listened to the same instrumental track over and over during the week she slowly died. I don’t remember much but the sadness then. It was right around the time I found this place.  I felt a part of me dying as I watched her slip away. Before she fell into the coma like  sleep I had one last chance to talk to her. I held her hand and told her with tears I my eyes that I loved her. She said I love you too.  It meant so much to me that her family wanted to make sure I got my chance to say goodbye too. It’s a difficult situation when they are all there but yet you too are grieving and sad. You don’t want to overstep your boundaries. Tonight I guess all the memories came flooding back. I miss her so much.

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vedura 7/20/2016 - 5:31 am

You are kind and sensitive, not always a blessing for you in this material world, but most certainly a blessing for all around you. Take care of your heart. This planet needs you.

PhantomCitizen43 7/20/2016 - 8:20 am

Yes, I have had jobs where my job was to take care of people and YES, I can say that. It is easy to become attached to a person when you are involved in taking care of them. And it is easy to miss them dearly when they are gone. Well you sound like a really good person and know that your efforts to help people are in fact making a positive difference .
Hang in there. I wish you the best.

Soco 7/20/2016 - 5:45 pm

Hey wintergirl. I just wanted to say thanks for all that u do. I lost my nan to alzheimers almost 12 months ago, and luckily where she was had some of the most caring, compassionate and loving staff i couldve hoped for. Two of which came to her funeral.
As a family member it means so much to have people like u around our loved ones as they get older. Ur a saint for what u do, & if theres a heaven, there is a special VIP area for good aged care nurses.
Thank u.!!

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