Soul Contracts

Been trying to figure out my spirit’s contracts for this life… I know and understand it’s to make a change for the better.

The problem?

I think what I’m meant to do is very good for me or some others. It’ll make a change, but not at first. Like maybe the terrible thing I’m going to do, will make a greater difference in the end. This thought also justifies a reason to kill myself.

Before this life, I made contracts with other spirits and then a god contract. Everyone that i’ve met, loved, hurt, been hurt by, i set up. It’s all building up for a final explosion; the bigger picture i’ll set.

as my old teacher said: “it takes a few bloody skulls for a revolution”