Ambivalence

Thanks for the comment.

I felt that this particular situation deserved to be published. In a sense, it can be viewed as an epitome of the ambivalent state of the suicidal situation; the moment in which you become both the observer and the observed. It is a moment that few truly reach, with far fewer returning to tell the tale.

In my particular case, it is what I have deemed to be – the longest night – of my life, to date.

For those of us that are one pull from freedom, it is a concurrent gift, both torturous and bliss.