I’ve reached the point where I’m ready to act… It’s a shamme my ex thinks I’m a sadistic bastard who gets off hurting her… When I am the type of person who forgets what they did yesterday and feels betrayal when said ex is angry for something I don’t even know is real or a dream.
Since I’m too weak to let go of the hope that maybe I can win her back now. I know I fucked up and gave half-assed attempts thinking I was ready but I’m fully-prepared now. If I can’t be forgiven than as a way of giving us both peace, I’ll end it on her birthday via webcam if possible. After all, if she truly hates me, she’ll be happy I definitely won’t bother her again. To be free of my true sin, I’ll end my Lust for her with a guaranteed method since I’m too weak to stay away.