For those of you guys who I’ve talked to in the past, nope, I’m not dead… yet.
Been a while since I last posted…
Anyway, quick update…
I ”met” this wonderful girl, who is actually my neighbour from back in my homecountry. I was really fucked up on booze one night with some friends, and she messaged me. I was so drunk I didn’t realize who I was talking with, so I went with the feeling and started flirting. Next thing I know, we’re a couple. Been two weeks and a half since we made it to this stage. I’m going back to Romania in the evening of the 19th, to visit my family and her.
Here comes the bad news…
I’m starting some kind of apprenticeship on the 5th of September… Meaning I’ll only be with her for about two weeks, and I won’t get to see her until next year. I really doubt this will work out…
Also, I’ve noticed I became kind of boring during our conversations… Or it might be just my paranoia… Regardless, I feel like crap.
If I abandon the apprenticeship and stay there, my family will fucking hate my guts (not that they don’t act like assholes already.). If I go on with the apprenticeship, I’ll have to break up with her…
I’ve been drug-clean for a while now… But I don’t think I’ll be able to keep it up anymore. Too much stress. A little chemical vacation would surely help me out, if only for a short while.
Suicidal thoughts are back, after all this time I thought I finally got over it…
Decision time… And only one week left.
What do you guys think I should do? I’m confused… And drunk… But mostly confused…
3 comments
Would you still have the otion to cancel the apprenticeship when you’re in Romania?
If that’s the case you should wait whith your decision until you’ve talked to her about this.
Like the other comment said, probably hard to decide until at least you go home to visit and see her.
If I had to give you an answer right now, I would say stick with the apprenticeship. Assuming that is something relatively important to you and you won’t just be able to sign up for it again if you change your mind. Love just seems really silly anymore. I’m close to 30 years old. 3 of my friends all got married in the last few years. In the past few months, two of them got separated, and the third one sent me a text lately saying “don’t ever fall for marriage, it’s all BS”. I can’t help but feel like love is a sick joke seeing so many people have trouble with it.
I’m a recovering hopeless romantic. It would be nice to think about cancelling all your other plans to be with someone special. But it could all go down the drain so quickly. And it’s kind of funny that this all started with texting her drunk when you barely knew who you were talking to.
If for some reason you guys really want to be together, it would also be possible to survive the year apart. But considering you just barely got together, and you’ll only have a few weeks to even see each other, it’s probably easier to set each other free and just accept this was bad timing that this happened right now. If you somehow end up crazy about each other, she should understand that the apprenticeship could be important and you guys could survive the year, somehow.
“Think with the right head”, as they say. Having a nice girl to be with would sure be tempting, but if that apprenticeship is going to lead to a job or something, don’t flush your life down the drain.
i say fuck it! go with the flow! continue your plans, try to enjoy yourself, don’t expect to much and what ever happens, happens! suicidal thoughts over something like this are silly, this happens all the time, you seriously have bigger fish to fry. Romantic Romanians are always trouble!! just joking 🙂 just play it out and it will go the way it should.