*sighs* How annoying. The moment when everything comes together perfectly and when my blind rage finally ends is when she decides she wants nothing more to do with me… I’m even going back to my old personality with more patience. The personality that caused her to like me in the first place. Oh well, guess it can’t be helped and I’ll always regret being too slow to escape my anger.
Apparently, I’m going to scare Shatterediris away (his words, not mine) due to my “new” personality. So this relationship is now doomed to fail… I wonder if that makes me scarier than a bunch of spiders now. Heh, that is amusing but still disappointing. It seems the only way Iris will be calm is if my attraction is pointed elsewhere. Kind of difficult to do when he is the only available recipient… Oh well, if I scare him off, it will be another notch to my belt or relationships my depression/apathy ruined.