I’ve been numb for so long that I’m as good as dead either way. I don’t want to die this way, but I have no other options. All my dreams are not worth saving. I would wait and eternity for the Light to come back. But what if I still love her? I thought I didn’t believe in love. I didn’t realize how much I could miss someone so much. I can’t forget her and I feel empty with her gone. It can’t be true.
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Yes, you feel painfully empty. I’ve been there and didn’t want to live. But I did live. As life went by, I gained perspective when I saw that person again, a great blessing because I realized that to be tied to that person for a lifetime would have been a disaster. They were not who I dreamed them to be or who they pretended to be.
Sometimes, when you don’t get what you want, you are being blessed, not cursed.
Hang in there. I wish you all the best.
Vedura
Hey Advisor,
I hate to say it, but lost love is not a reason to end anything. I was there so many times and, as I now realize, the pain I dealt with made me who I am today.
How you deal with it is the key. I got obsessed, which changed my personality for the worse. But you have the chance to take this as one of life’s lessons and learn from it – before it is too late. Relationships fail for a reason, people fall out of love for a reason, maybe because it was never meant to be or because it is not meant to be anymore. Be honest with yourself and try to figure out why you lost in love, but don’t give up.
I don’t know how old you are, but, let me tell you as someone with quite of few years of experience, there is ALWAYS new love to be found, even if it feels improbable or impossible at this point. Just take a step back, relax, think about what you might or might not have done wrong and learn from it. We all make mistakes in relationships, we are jealous, we lie, we obsess, we control, etc, but once you recognize your pattern you can change for the better.
In love, you lose sometimes, you win sometimes, but when it is right, you win big.
I know this may sound like shallow words, but a girl is not a reason to end it. She might be a reason to get depressed and feel lost, but, and once again, as shallow as it sounds, time will heal the wounds. There will be new experiences, new people, new love.
Believe me. I have been there.
LA