Alright, Nico here, I’m back.
So thanks to the people who commented.. You guys helped me calm down a little.
Heheh my mom didn’t throw away all of my stuffed toys but put some in the garage so I snuck and got them back.. Some of them were what my Charming gave me so that’s nice..~
I’m still a little upset and stuff about earlier though.. It hurts.. And now I’m being bombarded with other flashbacks of what my family did to me.. In 8th grade they bought a condo for me in the Philippines because they wanted me to go to medical school there.. They didn’t even care about my opinion.. Because apparently “A person with a C- in math and science doesn’t deserve to speak and voice their opinion.”
They know I try though and yet they still compare me to my cousins and other people saying they wished I wasn’t their child..
I just.. I just don’t even know if they care about me..
And just think a few days ago I thought life was getting better after they said they’ll let me go to college here and study what I want to study and started getting along with me a little..
I should’ve known it was just gonna turn out bad.. Stuff like this always does..
But anyways.. I’ll try to keep my head up and try to get over it.. It’s not good to linger on these things..
Hopeful that I’ll feel better soon, Nico.
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When they punish you for not living up to their standards, they are attempting to motivate you to do better, the only way they know how, the way they were motivated to do better. It is not that they don’t love you, but likely that they do not know how to be motivational in a positive way, because they were motivated by the judgement of others, they think that in the long run it will help you and in their mind they are just doing whats best for you. It is sad that people treat one another in this way but most have never had anyone in their life to show them how to solve their issues in positive and truly loving ways. Understand that they are likely trying their best, and try to forgive them for what they do not understand. I wish you the best in you pursuit for happiness friend.