I am fine from my last attempt. But today I am struggling. I feel so helpless. I Do not know what to do. Right now there is a wave of depression sucking me dry. I am fighting a war that to an outsider I look pathetic. I cannot win. I cannot keep fighting. Everytime I try to commit suicide my body fights back and puts me to sleep. PLEASE HELP ME!!!! I cant fight but I cant quit. I am fucked!!!