it’s been a while… Which is a good thing but here I am again… 7 months ago I joined the navy. I was happy for a change because I got away from my shitty situation but now I’m at my first duty station… I do a good job and I work hard and know what I’m doing but the people I work with are putting me right back where I was before, and now I feel trapped…because I am. I have 3 years left on my contract and every day I get closer and closer to going to buy that gun to end it all. This organization has taken everything from me. I was going to get married in a couple months to a beautiful woman who made me happy. But the distance was too much and now she won’t be joining me. I don’t know what to do I want to get out of this funk that I’m in but I don’t know how.
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You could always do things to get kicked out, if its really that bad. Like continuously disobeying orders. But, its probably best to try talking to someone first. Im not sure how the military works, but if they have councilors, you could talk to them maybe. Im not always great at giving advice, but I thought id give it a shot anyway 🙂
What is worse: breaking your contract (or trying to negotiate some changes), or killing yourself over your work environment?
It is an easy choice. I know it takes courage to actually make the change, because change brings uncertainty.
a dishonorable discharge would make things worse. Tons of people have lead successful, happy lives with that on their record, but it’s a hindrance. You won’t see “home” for 3 years; why not take this opportunity to cast off the cloak of your old life and rebuild yourself? Dump the pictures and any memories of the mainland and begin anew. You’ve been led to believe that you are the person you are by the people you grew up with, but now it’s time to change that mentality. Redefine yourself, toss old hobbies and habits and reclaim your independence. This might sound like poppycock, but you’ve got the opportunity to whipe the slate clean and start over. I’d love to join the military and rediscover myself, but from what I hear, the Canadian armed forces is a nightmare to be a part of.