I Don’t Want

I have so many questions
about life and why it does
this to people. I’m depressed.
Again. And I have no idea why.
Why won’t he get out of my
head? I don’t want him anymore.
I don’t want to think about him
anymore. I don’t want to love
him anymore. But it’s him.
The reason behind my smile,
my laugh, my happiness.
He made me love again. But
he ripped it all away from me.
My heart was ripped from my
chest when he left. It was thrown
to the ground and stomped on,
broken into millions of pieces.
My pieces are turning to dust….
It hurts so much. I want to scream,
I want to cry, I want to tear my
hair out. I want to scratch my eyes
out. I want to die…… But I can’t
think like that. I have a life to live.
I have a future ahead of me.
But right now, it feels as if
my entire world is falling
apart around me. I wish it would
all disappear. I don’t want to feel
anymore. I don’t want it.