This day… it needs to be over

I am done, I think my best friend is going to kill himself and or hurt himself. he is my world and i care about him so so much, so to see him like this breaks my heart. the thought of without him here makes me want me to kill myself and end the pain, i don’t ever want to lose him. I am numb and alone, i sit here with his roommate and I anxiously await for him. i am done.. so done. I can’t do this anymore.