I have been trying to fight the demons inside my head for so long, I have tried therapy, medicine, residential treatment, therapeutic classroom settings, nothing really seems to help with the constant dull, and depressed feelings, the anxiety, the urges to cut or attempt. I am in the dark, trying to find my way, there is no light and there is nothing around me but demons and darkness, I am falling apart at the seems. I have been screaming and crying for help and I seem to get looked over lately, those who have tried to help me can’t help me. I am too fucked up and un fixable. I have never felt so out of place, I am so far away from “friends” at college and now that the holidays approach and I have to be out of the dorms.. I now realized how alone and how disconnected I am from my family.. I honestly have no one.. I have no one to turn to anymore. I feel so lost. The demons are wining and eating me alive..
I .. I am so sorry. At this point.. its only a matter of time..
I love you.
XO, Love always,