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Giving up, lost, alone, confused and over it.

by falling_soup

I have been trying to fight the demons inside my head for so long, I have tried therapy, medicine, residential treatment, therapeutic classroom settings, nothing really seems to help with the constant dull, and depressed feelings, the anxiety, the urges to cut or attempt. I am in the dark, trying to find my way, there is no light and there is nothing around me but demons and darkness, I am falling apart at the seems. I have been screaming and crying for help and I seem to get looked over lately, those who have tried to help me can’t help me. I am too fucked up and un fixable. I have never felt so out of place, I am so far away from “friends” at college and now that the holidays approach and I have to be out of the dorms.. I now realized how alone and how disconnected I am from my family.. I honestly have no one.. I have no one to turn to anymore. I feel so lost. The demons are wining and eating me alive..

I .. I am so sorry. At this point.. its only a matter of time..

 

I love you.

 

XO, Love always,

falling_soup

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catsnap24 10/31/2016 - 10:07 pm

your not “too fucked up” theres always another way thats not ending your life. I’m here to listen. please know your not alone.

Death and Psyche 10/31/2016 - 10:36 pm

Hang in there. It’s always darkest before the dawn.

simplyhuman 10/31/2016 - 10:39 pm

I care and believe in you. You can do this.

falling_soup 10/31/2016 - 11:34 pm

aww.. I really am glad that this is the ONLY place I can be heard.. I am so thankful that you are all here and commented on this post.. I have been feeling so alone and so lost that most of my days seem so pointless and not really worth living. Thank you for all of the kind words, its people like you who are actually here <3

Love Always,

falling_soup

MOFIMS 11/1/2016 - 12:13 am

Stay strong. Make some meaningful connections, appreciate the ones you have, focus on the good, and life is so worth it. Do your best not to walk around trapped in your head anymore. There are things to be done and dwelling on your failings is not going to help. Try to figure out what it is you want because you need direction if you feel lost

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