I feel so selfish that I even tried to end my life. It’s hard, some days but there’s never been a day where I have thought of doing it again. It’s too hard. It’s horrible. I hate when my parents are worried. When your stuck in hospital and little children ask you why your here and all u Gotta say Is “it doesn’t matter right now”. When doctors think ur mad and ask questions that make you feel like ur trapped and won’t be let out. And when days later you are in a physiotherapists room, and there asking you to tell them why, and was it worth it? And all you can say is no. You wish ud never done it but you just got to move on and not look back. But a day like today I look back and think of how selfish I was to think that it was okay to try end my own life. Because today I found out my aunty died, from cancer. She had no choise. God took her. It makes me cry, to think of how selfish I was. But all I can do is move on and try not to look back. Please share your stories with me, I feel that it makes my life way easier when I talk, maybe it will make yours easier aswell. Thanks
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Gosh, I just want to give you a hug. I’m happy you’re still here with us. I’m sorry for the loss of your aunt. Please know you have an angel watching over you and a reason to be the best person you can be.
I was on this site 4 years ago with all intents of ending my own life. But I found myself helping others when I couldn’t even help myself. I’m not sure why, but after a year of hanging on by a thread, things got better. Maybe it’s because I left public school and started school online to escape that environment. Maybe it’s because of my boyfriend. I don’t know. But here I am, 4 years later to say that sometimes things do get better.
It’s nice to meet you. Cheers.
Fight off your demons.
Thanks for replying it’s good to hear that there is people fighting it and helping others aswell. We need to let people know that there is ways around it and ending your life is not a way out.
Still fighting the demons.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please believe me when I say to you that things do change. Like Reason0823, I’ve been to this website before, and through some miraculous circumstances I’ve too found myself on the other side of the muddy patch.
Things change, and it’s okay to feel the way you do about your suicide attempt. I think that it’s a miracle that you’re still here with us. We’re here for you.