i haven’t been on this website for a long time. I used to spend hours a day here. Right now i really need to express myself and there’s no one I can tell. I know we can’t discuss methods but suffice it to say that I have two bottles of a perfect lethal drug in my possession after years of searching for a good method. All I have to do is drink them and within a half hour I will sleep and never wake up again. I have wanted this for so long and plan to do it this weekend but why am I suddenly afraid? I guess I’m scared of the unknown. Scared I will be born again in an even worse situation. What do you guys think happens once we die? I used to feel so sure that the afterlife would be better and I figured if I just slept for eternity that would be ok with me too. But now I feel like I have become such a horrible person, so disconnected from faith and God, what if something bad is waiting for me on the other side. Any thoughts?
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I’m in same situation. I am planning it very soon. If you want to talk methods email me brgoodn6@ gmail . com
I sent you an email from my real yahoo account. Hope to hear back.
Just to add….I am also planning to drink that stuff. Being alone is not the best way. Just in case….we might be able to help each other. email in other reply.
dyinginny,
Since you asked, I think the same think happens to humans as to other apes, dogs, birds, insects, trees . . . . Have you ever seen that picture of Earth as seen by Voyager 2 at Neptune? Just a spec of dust, this tiny planet. But I still feel the same fears sometimes. Part of a natural pessimism many of us share, I suppose.
There’s nothing because our world is only a virtual projection. We don’t even exist. When we die, we just log off.
I hope you’re right. I could deal with that.
Just because you bought the meds doesn’t mean you need to take them. Give your time to work things out spiritually. The bottles will still be there. Give life a chance, as death is permanent. Best to you.
Thanks for responding. Things have sucked for a very long time. I don’t expect them to get better but I guess it wouldn’t hurt to hang on a little bit longer.
One way I as talked out of suicide was with Dante’s Inferno, a poem. You can check it out, but it just describes how hell is separated into circles/levels dependant on the sin (suicide is included). The possibility of that being a reality scared me.
I’m not religious anymore. I keep my distance from religion, but at the time, while I was sitting in a dark room one night, my friend told me about that poem, and it got me through. It might be something you’d like to look into. I’m not sure.
Fight off your demons.
I’m not religious and I don’t believe in forceful reincarnation. Either there is a reasonable afterlife or there is nothing after death. I’m afraid too but I’m dealing with it.
Please email me dyinginny – arms with blood@ gma il.com
Hi dyinginny. I too have picked that method. I’m all ready to do it.
As to your fears, I think that because it is ingrained in our heads to survive that you are probably justbhaving jitters. Please don’t make any rash decisions. This should be a time of peace and tranquility if you have really accepted the decision you are making.
U can email me if you want. Frozen9770 gmail com.