I tell everyone I’m fine, when in reality I hate myself.
6 months ago • General
Oct 09, 2016 @ 09:39:43
i do too!, how are you!! i’m great!! thing’s couldn’t be better!! then they leave me alone, most people aren’t interested in good news it makes them jealous! they want to capitalize off your misery. not in all cases but i’m just throwing it out there.
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Oct 09, 2016 @ 12:33:31
Oct 09, 2016 @ 11:07:18
Same here. In my mind, when I say I’m fine, people who know me should clearly see that I’m not fine, and see that I’ve become an obviously different and deeply depressed and angry person. In reality, no one cares that I’m suicidal and hate myself, humanity, and my life more with each passing day. They just want to hear “fine” so they can move on. Sometimes I want to answer “suicidal, since someone is finally asking.” I’m afraid I’d be committed if I was that honest. So I go around feeling invisible. Like a dark shadow who everyone accepts is fine, while their subconscious can see that nothing is right with me. I don’t exist anymore.
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