i dress up in this costume because i don’t want to be me. then i turn on the tv and pretend to be the brave amazing and beautiful girl on the screen. and i would do anything to actually be her. i thought this person would be a person other people would like but it tuns out no one does. i only put it on at night because no one even knows i have it.
i’d cut myself if it wasn’t for the fact my family is in town. i had a family member today look at me and tell me i was going to hell because I’m gay. her and just about the rest of my family feel the same way. i wish i could just be the girl on the screen. she’s everything i want to be and more.