2017

Does anyone else always get sad during New Years. Despite this being the most shittiest year of my life so far I still feel so much sadness that another year ends. I’m too scared to have optimism for 2017 as I’m scared it’s going to get crushed  and be left disappointed for another year. New Years is not a happy time for me and I don’t know why. My emotions are everywhere and I just lose all understanding it doesn’t make sense. My friends didn’t invite me for a second year in row to New Years party. I must be a massive *****. I don’t want to be one. All I want to do is make everyone happy but maybe I’m just a unlikeble person. how do I change it. I have a kind heart but maybe my personality is horrible and people just generally don’t like “me” . I’ll never get the place of being a “special” friend. Here’s to 2017 and I hope everyone year is amazing for them. I don’t have much hope for myself. I’m turning 17. I predicted this as the day I’ll finally go. I guess time will tell.