Got to keep if nots away to succeed

I was wondering something the other day I broke out with a massive amount of hives after holding my guiean pig i think im allergic anyway i was wondering if i was to swallow some of the hairs do you think i would get hives in my throat.my friends dont care about me anymore all my Christmas shopping is done they can figure out which present is theres im gone if not i will eventually use a boxcutter to cut my wrist or throat. I need to do this soon in two days as my sister is coming home and they are bringing company i cant be in that chaos either hopefully I will be gone if not well ive failed a lot so i got to keep the if nots out of my mouth