my life isn’t even that bad. i go to a private school and i have a lot of friends but I’ve been going down such a bad path. my parents were divorced when i was younger and the hate between has never stopped. i am always put in the middle of it. i don’t feel love anymore. these isn’t a way for me to describe it. I’m only 14 and w my friends I’m drinking and i feel like I’m putting my body out for others use. nobody really cares about me. our money is going down and I’m expected to be perfect. my dad got rich and my mom got screwed but now my dads going broke. he is very hateful sometimes and sometimes takes it out on us. he would Never lay a hand on us but he yell stuff “now were broke cause of you’re **** mother and we can’t do anything”. He expects me to play field hockey at top level. I used to have such passion for sports and school and doing the right thing. i just don’t care anymore. i don’t feel emotions anymore. theres just hate through the house. my brother goes to college next year and I’m left w/ my parents who i despise. I just feel like I’m alone. I don’t FEEL anything. everyone is in their rooms w/ the door shut on christmas eve. my older sister who doesn’t speak w/ my mo is giving me and my brother pity. the boy i like uses me for my body. i honestly don’t care i just want to drink. i think about my life and i want to cry but it just doesn’t come out the tears won’t fall. all i care about is drinking and boys and getting sympathy from boys. Im just fucked up and i could really use someone to talk to rn
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Hey oh!
Well we can chat if you like > my email is rushfan2017@yandex.com
Yes, you have some issues to deal with. I grew up in an abusive family and it was all Hate and mean. It was a horrible way to grow up… being hated by my parents and they taught me to hate other peope as well and for a long time I did. Hate was all I knew in life… until I grew up later in life and got away from my family and learnt that people can be good and that we all need to be *** to each other. 14 is a hard age… beig young is hard because you often need your parents to provide for you. Yes, drinking too much alcohol can bring a lot of problems into your life so be careful with that. Also yeah… if you let boys use you then later on down the road you will have a lot of hurt in your heart because of it and also low self esteem
try to find one boy that you like and one who is good to you.
try to learn as much as you can from school because you need that education later in life
you can email me if you want to chat
Do you still want to talk?
Hey I’m here to talk if you need
Go to Jesus. Go to Church, speak to a pastor about your problems and look for people in the same situation. Trust me, you’re not alone in this one. Women freely give their bodies in today’s generation that it’s uncanny. It’s a universal problem, brought about due to the emptiness of today’s society where only money, your career and how much you earn are valued. Even women in my country suffers from this. At least you have friends, that counts as something that can support you in tough times. If you look at my life story from the recent post I made here, I’ve lost everything. I have no one close to talk to, except my girlfriend for 11 years but even I don’t know how that’ll last but I’ll try the best I can to make something out of my situation despite my age. You’re still young, you have your life ahead of you. Don’t let your present situation bring you down. You still have a long road ahead of you.
My discord is “.”#7358 I know it’s been a few years but I’m here.