i am in pain so much now.
i cant do anything even eating. i feel i am getting be weak.
but its ok because i want to be dead.
i am tired of being nice to people and caring about them .
i realized that they just used me for their happy. and i have nothing. i dont expect too much in life.i just dont want to cry anymore and hurt myself… my head is full of how to kill myself…
its hurting me so much. tried to forget what happened in past, but i cant.
there are so many bad people in this world more than me but why i have this life and
situation… i dont have any friends to share my depression.
i am always alone and lonely…
and i know no one helps me
i dont need this life . if someone can share my feeling , messeges me….
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hello ygracy319 .. I don’t kik ?? or e-mail but I can tell you here that I Feel your thoughts . I stopped really eating about 6 months ago, lost heaps of weight .. Stopped drinking heaps of booze .. And stopped smoking lots of pot .. All 3 things I loved to do in life .. The depression thing hits hard sometimes – Last week or so I did nothing but look up suicide plans on the internet .. gasses / Ropes / car crashes / Trains / water /pills / — You name it I have looked it up .. I did try to die in my car with garden hoses running out of the exhaust into the car but this method is NOT recommended . New cars don’t make CO like they used to.. So depressed I am too.. Why we got this life – Who knows ? .. There is lots of people here to vent your feelings with .. Your not alone .. YOUR NOT ….
I’ve been doing nothing but looking up suicide plans for the past 3 months… Then I suddenly remembered a place the other day that has an 80-100 feet drop. It’s a public place with a slight guardrail, but I can scale it no problem. I’ve scouted it, and I think it could be a winner. Just need to do it later at night when it’s quiet.
Think I might give my family xmas and new year though before I do it, they’ve been very good, although it’s hard to put a brave public face on with them and my friends.
Everything that you wrote I can relate 100% I hate my life and I’m always wishing that I was dead. I think about it everyday.
I don’t eat much either and I have done this for a year now and look at me… I’m still here… unfortunately.
Whats making you feel so hurt? Is there any way that I can help you?