And i dont have a clue what’s happening. I don’t know what I’m feeling. I don’t know where my mind is.
Salt.
Finished hey joe.. Changed it up a lot. Im sure ill never let anyone hear it. But its done and my hands are fucking killing me.
Also… You are the most amazing person I’ve ever met. Remember one of the first stories i told you? The one about the angel? You were my angel
With all of my love and apologies,
-Miette
Snorlax,
Fuck you.
Okay.. Maybe not. But youre awesome and i wish you the best.
Overacievers who already passed,
Hope to see you soon.
That person who will inevitably text me within5 minutes of this post,
Thanks. You’ve been great. I’m sure we’ll talk before i go.
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Oh damn, please do not do this 🙁
Hey muspelhem. Have i ever told you youre cool as shit? I dont think i have. But its definitely true.
Thank you 🙂 I don’t know you that well, but what I do know, I like. I am really sad you want to go :´(
Miette, please wait. I have a reason for you to wait. I’ll tell you in a minute. Send me the song. You know your voice has always parted the flames of hell for me. I only have 2 short snippets of your voice but that has floated me for a year. Don’t you fucking dare leave
Ill send you something to hold you over. But not that. But itll be a bit. For some reason i feel the need to look good today. Might as well, right?
You look amazing every day, but yes please indulge.
You said you had a reason for me to wait. What is it?
You only get one life!
As it turns out, that’s one too many
What can I do to help you (I mean live, not kill yourself)?
I dont really know. There isnt much that can be done.
There must be some reason you got here. I don’t think anyone is born to end up wanting to kill themselves.
Just… you seem really smart and nice. You commented on a song I put up, you said it made your day, and that meant so much to me, because I just put sh*t up sometimes, and it feels vain and silly, but that comment made me feel good. So thank you for that. Just know that you are incredibly valuable, even just for the small things you do.
Hug
Ah yes. General Slightly Balmy. You have a lovely voice. One that shouldnt go to waste. The kind of voice that could make a difference.
Aww, thanks <3 I will remember that. I know you are maybe not in the mood to talk, but it sounds like you make music?
I do. Nothing good. But i do it anyways.
Same here 🙂 But I suspect you are being modest. If you feel like sharing, I would love to hear it. No pressure.
I never record anything anymore. I have nothing to give you
Damn 🙁 I was really curious. So you simply perform? More impressive.
Give me your email and ill send the only clip currently in existence
Yay!
It is my username @ hotmail.com
And please stick around :’)
You seem really special … be a shame for rescue dogs to lose one on their side as there are just not enough… please try to reconsider. You might feel better tomorrow you don’t know, everything could change as change only takes a second to happen. Please stay and fight.
I just want to dance with you
Feel the ground disappear from beneath my feet
Look into your eyes and learn to see
A different side of who I am and who I want to be
I liked that. Sorry I didn’t get to know you better. Peace be with you, little one.
Thank you, Smith
I don’t have anything much to say. I don’t have the words. But I’m sorry that you decided to leave now. You seem like a genuinely amazing person. I wish you could stay here breathing, even if the thought of the next breath were all that kept you alive, still living.
If im honest, im still looking for a reason and hoping something stops me tonight
You used to post pictures a bunch. Then you stopped. I wonder why,
Hmmm…
Reasons to Die:
1) Life sucks.
2) Life is hard.
3) You’re in pain.
4) You are unloved.
5) Disney has stripped the soul from Star Wars.
Reasons to Live:
1) The belief that life is shit is only a construct in your mind, and it is possible to change your mind.
2) Many people learn to cope with pain. Why not you?
3) Sunsets! Sunrises! Kittens! Fireproof kittens on the sun!
4) Love is everywhere. I have long experience with this. The only thing that stops love from reaching us are the blinders we wear. Take them off!
5) We will never see Jar-Jar Binks again. We are safe!
Goddammit seesmith if i wanted to smile right now, i wouldnt be on this site. Lol way to ruin everything. But thank you for ruining everything
Many people have thanked me for ruining things. I have a knack.
Also….
To add to what Smith said, reason to live: this is something that Salt said recently – proving the universe wrong. When the universe screws you over, pick up your head screaming because that’s the most powerful thing that you can do before the facts of existence.
What has kept you going thus far?
how about concentrating on getting through today/the next hour/the next minute/second? Writing a song? Putting things into words?
If you can’t find a reason to live for yourself, who/what is there who you care about/who cares about you? Think about it/them…maybe construct an imaginary (or real) conversation with them/it or write a song/draw/write a letter for/about it/them.
Your life has meaning and purpose, concentrate on what makes it that way…however small it might seem to you.
List the things that are beautiful or important to you
Read it over and over
All I know is that you are stronger and more beautiful than you think.
Keep breathing.
Plenty of other days to do it Sammi, doesn’t have to be tonight, it’s cold outside. Some other day might feel better for you or maybe things will get better for ya.
If you are not already dead and have the ability to read this, don’t do anything stupid, enjoy.
God fucking dammit!!! late to the party again because I fuckin fell asleep again :´(
Now I know why I didn’t want to wake up and stay in that dream
You know my heart is breaking right now in more ways than one, I have this desire to fix you, no a need to fix you, and I really really hate that I can’t and didn’t even know where to start.
9 hours too late I’m screaming at my computer PLEASE DON’T GO, not just in my inept way to make you stay, but so you’d know I wanted you around.
So god damn torn between between my selfishness of wanting you to be here, and the want for you to have some peace, if those two things wouldn’t coincide.
There are some people here that touch us more than others, I know it’s not fair to play favorites, but you are one of those, while others deserve peace too, I can without shame admit to myself that if/when they left I wouldn’t be as phased as when one of my favorites would be leaving. Like you.
Once again I can’t make sense of the words and don’t know what or how to write them down, and again still anxious about saying/writing the wrong things, just writing these few pointless lines have taken way over an hour already.
I’m sad for your pain, I’m sad you felt like leaving I’m sad when you are gone, I’m glad when you find the peace you needed and deserved, but I’m sad if you just couldn’t find it here, all I hope now is you managed to find it.
Salt might be your Angel, but I think at times you forgot you are an Angel too
Angels are always missed
guess what I’m trying to say is I’ll miss you,
my best wishes hopes and dreams are with you,
I think I’m gonna try and go back to that dream again now,
see you soon
Actually, snorlax, a few miracles found me just in time. I had an army backing me today and i think it’s time for me to accept that suicide isn’t meant for me no matter how badly i want it sometimes. It clearly just isn’t meant to be.
you know that makes me happy, even if also in a partially hypocritical and sadistic kind of way
not like I want you to stay miserable, but not like I want you to go either, it’s not fair, but misery likes some company you know… at least now and again…
but somethings and someone(s) draw us in more than others, and you are definitely one of those for me on SP
somethings can be “browsed” through, but amidst the chaos and random and flood of all the peoples words, some of the words suck one in, and can’t be helped but to devour every last one of them
even if I can’t or don’t know how to return such words in kind at times, nervous to upset the delicate balance that those words bring in the all the chaos, as if putting down just a single wrong word by me, would snuff these precious words by others from the existence, now remanded to chaos, become random, lost in the flood.
so safer if i not comment/put words down at times i feel
but maybe that also means sometimes, some of those people don’t get to be as aware of how precious they and their words truly are
probably should say thank you for your words a bit more often than I have
Thank you Sammi
and thank you for staying a little longer,
makes me happy to know there are still one more Angel here
the world needs every last bit and one of you few Angels still around
even if they come from a place of pain, Angels are beautiful and their words precious and they are so very dear to lost souls
Youre one of my favorites too, Snorlax