I’m numb. I’ve become numb from pain. My social studies class who will constantly plague me. My confusing sexuality. AL and LW and AA – the people that will never stop bothering me, just like the rest of the world. Honestly – I hope they find this, or that someone finds this and tells me they found it and embraces me but I will not feel it because I am numb. I’m going to start putting my initials in hopes that someone will find this, someone that I know, someone that will help me (that’s not my guidance counselor, because honestly, he did nothing – this helps a hell lot more). I am so numb. So so numb. Numbness has taken over my body, and every step I take feels like pins and needles. But I am glad for that. I am glad for the pain. The pain keeps me from being completely numb, from shutting out the world. Thank you for whoever reads this post and feels an ebb of feeling for me.
-BHP