Optimism: Nothing Less Than Expected

In the spirit of both the holiday and the prompting of what seems like everyone I’m close to, I’ve been trying to approach things differently as of late. As I’m sure the majority of you are aware, it’s hard when you have given up and everything glows in a negative light. I’m trying to get over a past relationship that’s stuck in me like thorns. I’m trying to be active and work out. Trying to be consistent with violin practice. Trying to build relationships with people at work. I’ve even gone as far as to ask a girl on a date, which she said yes to. Unfortunately, as soon as things were looking better, I realized I had played myself the fool for being optimistic in the first place. I’m still caught up on a relationship that ended months ago, my workouts and violin turn into me wrapped in a blanket telling myself I’ll do it after I finish so and so game or movie, my relationships are base at best and kept at work alone, and, the cherry on my misery-sundae, the girl, who I was seriously interested in (and thought she was interested in me as well) has just stopped talking to me and I’m gonna have to work with her soon. Reflecting on my attempt to forge my own fate, it’s clear to see, when you’re optimistic, you’ll be disappointed, and that’s no less than I expected.