All I really truly want is to be DEAD. But right now does not seem like the best time to do that unfortunately. So if I can’t wish for death then I would want a bunch of other things.
- run away
- dropping out
- drugs
- alcohol
- sex
- a boyfriend or girlfriend
- eat no meals everyday
I know some of them are bad but honestly that is all I feel like having or doing if I can’t commit suicide. Does anyone else want these things?
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To be honest, I want the same damm things as you do. If I can’t have suicide, then I’ll have something else thats close
Me too
Just suicide is what I want. I have nothing else if possible a girlfriend and living alone
well eating nothing can lead to malnutrition and ultimately death so it is a win – win .
I agree with some of them: I do want some of what is on your list
To Run Away
Alcohol to curb my anxiety
Yes I would like a girlfriend or a boyfriend
Yes I would like to have sex on occasion
But I do not like drugs, and I would not want to go without eating
if I am going to be alive… I need to exercise and eat every day and drink a lot of water
ULtimately what I want to come into my life is MONEY
If I could find a way to get a lot of money them I would be able to go out
and do a lot of fun things in life and have it good.
but at the moment… I am on a tight budget and it sucks
Money dosen’t matter to me in that If I won the lottery tonight, my mind would still be the exact same when I picked up the cheque. I would swap a lottery win actually to be free of the social anxiety and the OCD, and get recently departed people back into my life.
Ain’t gonna happen so I’ll need to take things into my own hands soon,,
Winning the lottery sure would help my circumstances greatly, but you’re right. It can’t change your physical problems only your materialistic and financial problems. It would take a big weight off of me though… and give me some breathing room.
It sounds like you have some very debilitating issues that are greatfully affecting your everyday world happiness. That must be so hard and frustrating. I can’t relate exactly cause I don’t suffer from OCD or any kind of social anxieties so severe that it keeps me from people or keeps people from me…but I do have a lot of sympathy for those who do and wish it wasn’t so debilitating so people could enjoy their life more. It’s so unfair that people have to suffer so badly from something they can’t help…something they didn’t bring upon themselves. Sorry your in the mindset you are because of these things…I do get it.