This is my first time here… searched something horrible but found this instead. My heart bleeds for all of you, all of us, that feel the same impulse that brings us to a site like this. Right now? I feel especially broken, especially despondent, incapable of anything but despair. It hangs over me like a cloud and consumes every trace of hope in my heart. Is there any left at all? Doubting it.
The world feels crushing and cruel, a place that is not very pleasant to be in. Worst of all is myself, my own weakness, my lack of entitlement to any of the good and beauty that I do know is also here. I am in a state of constant fear and anxiety. My heart burns with self-hatred. I am not strong enough for any of it.
Is there hope, anyone? Some tiny part of me wants to find it, even as the rest of me just wants to finally quit this. I don’t know if there’s much more fight left in this weak, pathetic heart.
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We will get past these fazes in our life, just have faith in yourself. I am where Youre at and we can get past this!
I wish I could say something amazing that would ease your pain. There is no easy way through this journey called life. Sometimes it feels unbelievably hard, and that’s because sometimes, it is so hard. Hold on….
im sorry we all find ourselves here. but im glad that we are all together. my hope today is that there are people here who feel the same. so welcome featherwrapped. i hope u find some happiness soon.
Thank you. I sincerely wish you feel it too. 🙂
Welcome feathwrwrapped glad you found this. It is a great place to be able to express your self to users and viewers who understand. I feel for you my friend
Hello, SadLife958. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find your hope and happiness too.
Is there hope? Whilst we are alive there is always a chance that things will get better. If we end it we remove all chance and therefore hope. Some people on this site set themselves a sort of challenge (not the right word, can’t think of the right word, sorry) which goes like this: I will suicide in 7 days if I at no point in the 7 days feel hope, happiness or doubt. If hope, happiness or doubt are felt, one starts over again with the 7 days.
That’s true… and that’s a good idea. Thank you, I will try and keep it in heart. Any and all techniques are worth trying, and maybe tracking it will be eye-opening for me. 🙂