Sorry for any mistakes. English is not my native language.
I’m not under the pressure of time anymore. But I want to be gone as soon as possible. I’m not gonna write why I’ll kill myself because i think we’re all here because of the same reason. There’s no point. I decided to give myself time and die properly. I want my death to be painless. I’m so afriad of pain. I’m a loser. I know I won’t be able to kill myself any other way. But I live with parents and here’s the problem. I have no idea how am I going to explain helium tank in house. It’s my only chance but I still don’t how. I just wanted to share my thoughts ’cause I have no one to talk to. This is what this site is for right?
I guess I’m also looking for answer what should I tell them
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Try and hide it from them. If they find it just make up something about wanting to start a new career as a balloon animal maker. That is the only thing I could come up with. I am right there with you only I have a weapon and I am still afraid of doing it wrong or ending up in pain.
It is natural because what you are wanting to do to yourself is, technically, not natural. I hope you find peace and can find the sanity you are looking for.
Balloon animal maker lol. I love gallows humour. I’ve never really researched helium. Can you even get helium tanks in the UK? Wouldn’t know where to start with it, and I want to be gone very soon, so I can’t start researching again. Any old thing that takes me out the door will do.
Be careful, many companies who sell Helium tanks do not sell 100% helium tanks because of the liability. Make sure what you get will kill you…
What Swish said, you’ll need 100% helium or ********. But as far as explaining either of those things good luck. Better get really good at hiding things really fast.
This sounds like me in a different body. I want a helium tank as well but they all have oxygen. <3 If anything get balloons with the tank, tell your parents you want to start making balloons.
Thank you all. The more I know about this method the more I think I’m gonna just hang myself. ******** would be a better option but there’s no way I’ll get to buy it. Especially here