Do You Really Want to Die or Do You Just Want Your Pain or Your Struggles to End?

I think pain and struggles can be combined together because my struggles are what is causing my pain. I just do not want to be in pain to have to not think about what the ex or kids are doing. How am I going to go on without them and so on. If I could have a way of deleting that I would be fine.

There is only one way for that to happen and that is for her to take me back (LOL, never going to happen) or to end it all and that way the problem is solved.

Eventually I will be forgotten and everyone will have gotten over it so it is no big deal. At least I will not have to die old, alone, miserable and probably in pain.

That is my story at least.

For me Sum the pain of living is far worse than living. I understand that death is a big deal for people especially when you have someone who is suffering in agony and the only reason I hear for keeping someone from committing suicide is because there is a plan for them or you will end up hurting people that you leave behind.

For me it is a personal decision that I did not do on a whim. I do believe life is not going to get better for me and to sit here and stay alive just to not upset someone’s morals or their beliefs and what they feel is right or wrong. I believe it is a personal decision left us to those that have had enough of this life and are ready to go on their terms.