I don’t know what the fuck is going on.
I just know that I don’t want to be here.
I know that I don’t want to be alive.
I know that I will never experience true happiness, that I will always hurt, because people always lie.
There’s no room for honesty when you’re a liar.
I can’t trust anyone.
I think it’s time to go.
I think it’s time for me to go away.
I think it’s time for me to disappear.
Make everyone happy, especially him.
He’ll be happier with me dead.
“I love you” is the biggest lie anyone could say.
I’m not capable of being loved.
I’m not capable of being happy.
For the first time my mind is actually blank.
I can’t hear any voices, they’re all gone, they’re really gone.
Like everything is silent, but I think it’s just my mind lying to me.
Even my voices can’t stand me. Even my voices left me alone.
Even my voices don’t want me. So I’m truly alone right now.
I’m all alone. How it always is. I’m alone, always and forever.
People always lie. Everyone’s a liar. Everyone is a liar.
Everyone is out to get me. Everyone is out to hurt me.
I think it’s time for me to go away now.
I think it’s time to disappear, forever.
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Don’t listen to the voices. You have some messed up brain chemistry, like me, you are depressed. Not everything you think about yourself or others is true. You have to accept that. Things will get better, but only if you let them.
My brain chemistry is all fucked also. Your not alone.