im such a sad excuse of a human being. someway, somehow, i manage to fuck everything up. i really fucking hate myself, down to the core. my friends dont actually care, my classmates dont actually care, my boyfriend sure as hell doesnt.
in fact i bet my boyfriend is only dating me cause im easy. or if he broke up with me he doesnt want to live with the guilt of me killing myself. the one person i thought was different really isnt shit.
i thought my friends understood. but they dont. its still a constant state of “well youll get better” or “you can snap out of it” yeah right. why do i bother? i dont know.
the sad part is things are actually getting better for me, so why cant i just appreciate it and not fuck it all up
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I’m the same.
I fuck everything up too.
My friends keep saying that I’ve no reason to be depressed and don’t seem to care about it.
My classmates don’t relly care about me either.
I have no girlfriend though.
So I can’t relate on that part.
I believed that atleast one friend would understand, because he was “depressed” himself. But he also says that I’ve no reason to be depressed and that his life is 10000 times worse than mine.
And I even tried to help him when he was depressed, but this is what I get back.
Life really isn’t fair, right?
All these people that use others, are unfriendly,… seem to have a good life.
Anyways, I hope it will all somehow work out for you.
Greets Kur0-Nek0
thanks. trust i know the feeling, no one really “gets” mental illness in my friend group. people think its self created which really sucks for me. and no, life really isnt fair
It really sucks when no one believes you.
I always have to act like I’m okay, and the few people that know the truth, don’t care.
It’s really tiring.
If you need to talk you can email me at Dustin7937atgoogledotcom. We can Chat about w.e u like I’m 29 and know that feeling… Lets take our bad hands we were dealt and bluff the Fuck outa them until life folds