I am stuck. I was recently dignosed with moderate borderline severe emphysema. To a regular person this is a wake-up and they would adjust their lifestyle to live longer. Me on the other hand I’m looking 3-5 depending on how much I smoke and how little I exercise. My current junction the last option I currently want. It’s the way I have felt for 15 years. I am also dignosed bipolar that is untreated and even treated I find it hard to find happiness in my life. My catch is right now no one relies on me. What if in that 3-5 years circumstances change. Then I’m stuck with an even worse situation. I mean last 15 it hasn’t changed. If anything it has become worse. I really don’t have anyone to talk to about this. The one semi friend I spoke to I just threw out there I’m not changing my lifestyle and taking the punches that come with it. He calls it selfish. To me forcing someone to live a life that has never made them happy to keep those you cross paths with happy is selfish.