sometimes, you just need to scream

January 6th, 2017by who_even_cares

it doesnt matter where you are

it doesnt matter who you are

it doesnt matter what you are

sometimes you just need to scream at the top of your lungs because staying inside your head for one

more

goddamn

minute

would be like a snowball to stay inside of a furnace of its own free will

and you just need to to hold onto the last possible shreds of your sanity

and the last bit of your motivation

and the final shard of energy

because the only thought that drives you on is that maybe you will get better.

sometimes you just need to scream

but its less about the screaming and more about being heard

because being alone is the thing keeping you alive and killing you at the same time

because screaming is the only way to be heard and be alone.

sometimes you need to scream

not because you have something to say

but because you need to say anything.

sometimes you just need to scream

because you need others to catch a glimpse of what you feel

to see the hurt beneath the happiness

so that they can see how close you are to snapping

and becoming hollow eyed and hopeless.

sometimes you just need to scream

because its the only thing you can do.

 

written in a flurry of tired words at 1 am

by another casualty of a terrible childhood surrounded by terrible people.

 

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