I like being suicidal. I suddenly realized when I was very little(I remember the sensation) that everything dies. Everyone has that moment sometime early in life. Now that I can accept that everything ends, I have less need to make sense of things.
It’s freedom. It’s not that I care deeply whether I die right now, that’s actively suicidal. I just accept it as an end unto itself(pun intended). If I wish to not suffer at all there are two ways. Push forward to enlightenment, or opt out entirely. Personal opinions all.
Nothing will ever change on me being suicidal, it will always be an option in the back of my head even if I am “happy” because even happy I bear a lot of pain an depression from my past that I will never truly get over, but i do some days have hope that I will meet someone who will walk along side me and remind me that he or she is one of the reasons I am still alive, and still accept the fact that I may not be able to continue with my pain and I may too opt out. Idk that’s just my thoughts on it.
Foxglove I love your input that’s a great way to look at it and in a way I feel the same I just am not that good with the wording.
The things I’d want out of life would require a new identity and higher brain capacity. Even then I’d still be depressed/passively suicidal, but on my own terms at least.
1. Being a normal human being, a typical woman, who cares about looks and statuses.
2. To be understood and meet people like myself. I talk to dead people and help them cross over to the other side. I feel real people also and everything that they are feeling or going through and what’s going to happen in their lives. The only way to block this out is to be completely Fucken drunk!!
Don’t get me wrong everybody loves me and thinks I’m an awesome chick. I have so many family n friends but no one knows me 🙁
Wooo is me fuck it have another drink haha
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I like being suicidal. I suddenly realized when I was very little(I remember the sensation) that everything dies. Everyone has that moment sometime early in life. Now that I can accept that everything ends, I have less need to make sense of things.
It’s freedom. It’s not that I care deeply whether I die right now, that’s actively suicidal. I just accept it as an end unto itself(pun intended). If I wish to not suffer at all there are two ways. Push forward to enlightenment, or opt out entirely. Personal opinions all.
Nothing will ever change on me being suicidal, it will always be an option in the back of my head even if I am “happy” because even happy I bear a lot of pain an depression from my past that I will never truly get over, but i do some days have hope that I will meet someone who will walk along side me and remind me that he or she is one of the reasons I am still alive, and still accept the fact that I may not be able to continue with my pain and I may too opt out. Idk that’s just my thoughts on it.
Foxglove I love your input that’s a great way to look at it and in a way I feel the same I just am not that good with the wording.
that was well-spoken.
i feel the same way
Due to my past, I’ll always be suicidal, however… a couple million bucks would “relieve” my suicidal urge a bit.
Yes.
I must die.
The things I’d want out of life would require a new identity and higher brain capacity. Even then I’d still be depressed/passively suicidal, but on my own terms at least.
1. Being a normal human being, a typical woman, who cares about looks and statuses.
2. To be understood and meet people like myself. I talk to dead people and help them cross over to the other side. I feel real people also and everything that they are feeling or going through and what’s going to happen in their lives. The only way to block this out is to be completely Fucken drunk!!
Don’t get me wrong everybody loves me and thinks I’m an awesome chick. I have so many family n friends but no one knows me 🙁
Wooo is me fuck it have another drink haha